Sunday Morning Call

Here's another sunday morning call
You hear yer head-a-banging on the door
Slip your shoes on and then out you crawl
Into the day that couldn't give you more
But what for?

To score well for exams!! Haha.

Anyway, I think my biological clock's been disrupted, rather badly. Part of the reason why I failed to fall asleep on Friday night was due to my upsetted biological clock. Nowadays, I sleep in the morning, say 6am, and wake up just before noon and the whole cycle repeats. I'm pretty pissed about how fast time past. Like yesterday, I felt that I didn't accomplish much due to my afternoon paper which took up the entire afternoon, tuition in the late afternoon and a bit of slacking at night.. :(

And Jenny pok has fallen sick, from too much "heaty" snacks, drink lotsa water babe, get well soon! :)

I hope time can slow down...

Wake up my idea!

Yes as I was mentioning that I couldn't get to sleep last night and was fretting about not having sufficient rest and mental power for my paper.. Thank God I fell asleep soon after..

BUT to my extreme shock and horror, I realised that the paper was at 1pm, only moments before I was all ready to set out and head to MPSH! Sheesh, luckily I met my friend at the canteen who then informed me of the "good news".

Gosh! I'm an ultimate cockster, think I contracted the bug from someone. *Hurhurhur* >l<

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Yeah, but when?

Sob Sob

Why? Why does it have to be this night of all nights? I just can't get to sleep and it doesn't help much when my skin's itching like mad. I think it's some allergic reactions to too much MSG. 'Cause I had lotsa MSG the past few days and a lot and a lot of "heaty" stuff. The itch comes, I scratch my skin, a moment later, the rash disappears and some other part's targeted. Sigh. Why? And I need sleep for my paper at frigging 9am later! Crap, I feel like crying...


Dear Jesus, I really need your help to make me sleep right now and get some quality rest before my exam later. Please Lord, make the itch disappear and get me to sleep now. In your mighty name I pray, Amen!

Beauty in its rawest form.

I'm blogging, instead of studying yeah. Hmm. I realised that blogging is, to me, speaking to myself. You know, when you think, thoughts spring up all around the place messily and blogging helps me organise my thoughts. I think I've yet to master the art of conveying my thoughts clearly to anyone 'cause it's really quite tough to retain the full meaning of a thought when expressed verbally. Unlike blogging, there's no backspace when you speak. In a way, I think blogging is drawing me away from the real world, as in, away from people 'cause I don't see a need to share my thoughts/feelings with them anymore as I always seek solace in blogging nowadays.

Anyway, I actually do think a lot when I study! Don't get me wrong, I don't recall on what I studied, rather, I think about life. Sheesh, self-distracting heh!

Something which I've noticed lately.. Life is really beautiful. =)

Some entertainment- joy I found while listening to Jay Chou's Ye Qu:

"...为你弹着小胖的夜曲，记得我失去的ice-cream..."

I hope Jay Chou's fans won't kill me for this! :P

Finally!

I've changed the time and date settings. It's just disconcerting to see a post that I typed this morning is dated Wednesday and timed at 9.10pm when I freaking typed it at 11.30am!! All right, so much for the annoyance, everything's been rectified! =)

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

C'mon baby do the locomotion!

Everybody's doin' a brand new dance now
(C'mon baby do the loco-motion)
I know you'll get to like it
If you give it a chance now
(C'mon baby do the loco-motion)
My little baby sister can do it with ease
It's easier than learning your a b c's
So come on, come on,
Do the loco-motion with me
You gotta swing your hips now
Come on baby,(baby), jump up, mmm jump back
Well I think you got the knack

Yeah baby and I'm chug-a chugging like a railway train now to the library. Hohoho.

Sheesh man, super sinful, I slept for 7 hours! Darn it! When I only wanted about 5.5 hours of sleep... all 'cause of the rain and I decided that we couldn't go to the library when it was raining and so went back to sleep.

Time flies. Geeezzzzz.. 1.5 days to D-Day. Amazingly fast!

About smell

I like what my friend said.

"When you smell shit, it means that shit particles are entering your nostrils."

Ahahaha. Makes sense?

Freak, I wonder how many thousands, millions shit/garbage/vomit/urine/"hong-kong" feet etc... particles have entered my body.

No wonder it's been poisoned.

A million gazillion thoughts

I can't quantify the amount of thoughts I have right now.

I thought I was but I was wrong. I think therefore I am. And I'm so glad to have realised it now and not later, though I've wasted almost 21 years of my life...

Why didn't I? Why did I?

I thank God for the answers.

A day to remember...

Happy Birthday Wei! Many many happy returns and all the best in everything you do! =)

All right, bro2 turns 16 today. Time flies. But he'll forever be that adorable mischievous youngest brother of mine! Haha.






a day to remember.

Unconditional

Gosh I didn't know quitting the internet can be so difficult! I'm trying really really hard now.. Have reduced my time Staries-ing, have stopped checking emails every now and then.. So what now? I've to stop blogging! Haha.

Oh no.

Anyway, went out for dinner with my family just now, to celebrate bro2's birthday. Had dinner at Fig & Olive at Vivocity. I think, I gotta rate it hmm... 2.5/5. The only nice food there was the Melted Fish & Chips and perhaps Mocha Figo. Haha. The pasta that we ordered were.. well below our expectations. Bad food aside, it was great hanging out with my family, albeit my bros were at times, annoying. Haha.

I think we've all grown up. I miss those days where would go cycling at the park, go here, go there. And just have fun. Haha.

Now, we're all lured by different temptations, computer games, guitar, movies etc. Well, hopefully we will bond even stronger over our differences. Oh man, the more I should quit the internet!

A Confession

I was browsing through the papers today and an article on the front page caught my attention. It was on "Tech Geeks", not really referring to tech savvy people but rather, people who are addicted to technology. Haha. I must say that I'm one of these people. Hence, while I was reading, I was silently agreeing with all the syndromes and behaviour mentioned. In fact, more and more people are turning into tech geeks and this trend's causing many people and companies to worry.. Haha to the extent that some have already come up with "No interent for a day" campaigns etc.

I almost turned hopeless.

I must admit, I have surfed the net for six hours straight before, unknowingly and aimlessly. I dreamt of playing Staries and checking emails.

I'm glad I've managed to kick off the addiction (for now), due to studying for exams and the bad scare I had this morning.

Woots. Now you see why I'm always complaining about the lack of time. I was hooked onto the net. And I'm rehabilitating. Pardon me.

Friday Night

I love this particular Friday night/ Saturday morning.

It's raining heavily outside. Rain drops are pitter pattering hard onto the ground. There's total silence, except for the rain/thunder and light soft music playing from my laptop. Woots. Just perfect for studying.

I hope I can still this moment.

Uncloud the clouded mind

It's the last day of Semester 4 and inevitably, have some thoughts about this entire semester.

Had a test today. Haha yah on the last day of school. It wasn't easy at all, compared to the previous quiz, which was "chicken feet".. sad to say. But harping on it ain't gonna do me any good now. Hence, after this post, I'm gonna burry my head in books and notes and hopefully knowledge will diffuse into my brains. Haha. Fat hopes.

Well, anyway, back to my thoughts. This semester was a fresh start for me, considering the fact that I was fumbling my way through the past 3 semesters, not knowing (for sure) what I was studying about. At least, the modules this semester, with design projects and stuff, kinda interest me more and I'm thankful to have a few friends to tide through this period together. Hence, overall, I must say, I had fun in school. Ahaha!

I guess, it also boils down to my change in mentality towards studying. Like to stop complaining and to enjoy the entire process instead. For me, it works when I feel like I'm studying to empower myself and not studying for the sake of obtaining good grades and stuff. Haha. Well, I hope all's not too late and that there's still sufficient time for remedy. Four more semesters to go and I'll be out, facing the corporate world.

And a part of me is dreading it... Is that the path that I've to take?

And I can't believe........................................................... I'm such a procrastinator I should bang my head against the wall!

"just believe that God will see u through!!" =)

无奈

我是一条虫。

Creativity is suffocating.. Please help her!!

It sucks when Creativity's been stifled 'cause of other stuff that are happening at the same time and it doesn't help much when I TRY not to think about the other stuff 'cause it's just occupies a humongous part of my brain.

Humph! Stupid Exams chase Creativity away!

For once.. again, I feel like a wooden block. A block head, literally.

Creativity, please appear and strike me in your whatever forms! Sigh. And I know it's time to sleep, a good time to think BUT my brains are screaming "sleep". So I guess, I've no choice but to wait for the other stuff to be over.

All right, utter crap. I'm typing this at 3.30am in the night morning.

If I... Wish I...

If I could NOT do the following stuff (for the next 3 weeks that is), I'ld give myself a very very big treat come 5th May! =)

1) Log in to Facebook.
2) Blog.
3) Youtube.
4) Sleep more than 8 hours a day.
5) Check emails everday.
6) Drink more than 2 cups of coffee.
7) Surf the internet other than for study purposes.
8) Daydream.

And to entice myself further (with the treat of course!!), I shall list down what I'ld treat myself to if I could stick to my resolutions.. Something sweet and simple! Haha..

A good book to read and a good cuppa of ice-blended, with WHIPPED CREAM, at Coffeebean!

Yay yay! Sooooooooo looking forward to my "getaway". It's all in the mind and all about self-discipline!

On Social Enterprise

Wheee! I went for a talk today, organised by the MISE committee. It was supposed to be a workshop on Executive Summary, or so we were told before hand and thus I was expecting a lengthy, boring session on the techniques of writing a good executive summary. BUT hell not, it turned out to be a rather benefitting session, somewhat inspiring too, as they've invited a few social entrepreneurs to share their experiences with us! =)

I must say that the social entrepreneurs are really capable with foresight and big hearts. I was initially baffled by the term "social enterprise" as Bin and I debated on its definition. Is it a cause and effect thing? As in, do we start a business first then work on its social aspect or the other way round? However, after listening to the speakers, I think we've both got a clearer picture as to what it's all about. I guess, for us, it was be more of starting a business that will be beneficial to the society. Hmm.. and that means we gotta revise our plans! So exciting!

All right, besides this MISE thing. I've learnt that starting a business ain't an easy thing at all. You gotta have foresight, to identify the needs of the people which are not yet satisfied. Then, you gotta come up with realistic sound plans then consider many (and I really mean a lot) of aspects, from market analysis to finance to human to resources to management to sustainabiltiy and then implementation of the plans.

But I still believe that it's all about having the continuous drive and passion for the things you do.


Yes man! Hehe! =)

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Staries Part 2

OH frigging! I'm hooked onto Staries. In fact, addicted, such that when I don't log on to Facebook to play it, I suffer from withdrawal symptons. Sheesh, evils of the internet. Anyway, haha when I was playing Staries today, some thoughts struck me again.

It's like, I've managed to climb up the leader board BUT....

1) Staries, according to other friends who played it before, is passe. They have moved on to other games while I'm still stuck at it. The point is that, like in life, things progress very quickly and thus fad changes very quickly. I must say that by now, I'm pretty good at Staries, always scoring more than 10 000, compared to the measly 5000 when I first started playing because practice makes perfect and I improve each time I play. BUT the truth in life is, time doesn't wait for you. By the time I've mastered Staries, people're playing other games already. Just like real life.

Jack of all trades or master of one?

2) The high score ain't mine. Hurhur, actually Jenny pok played and got that high score!! HAHAHA.. So the thing's about leveraging on others' talents/ intelligence to get things done! =) Kidding man Jenny pok!! Haha, but thanks for helping me set the record! Hahaha! =P

Ok, I think I'm kinda lame and crazy to some extent to be analysing Staries again.

Hihi Mr Cyclone!

FREAAKKK!!

I'm soooooooooooo distracted!! So distracted that I wish I could travel back time, to the past when all the great inventors lived and then see for myself how they worked on their ideas and turned them into reality, into the stuff that we're using right now!!! OMG OMG OMG! I wouldn't mind meeting them in my dreams anyhow.. =) Hurhur...

BUT SHIT!
I can't concentrate on studying now. Period.

Consciousness

Once again, this brings me back to the topic on human beings. I really find human beings, ok me included haha, really powerful. I especially admire inventors, people who have built something out of nothing. Sometimes, I wonder how and where they got their capabilities from. Were they born smart or were they smart because of what they were born into? I've self-debated on this cause and effect phenomenon before. No doubt, being gifted is one thing BUT how one make use of this gift is another thing. I do believe that NOT all inventors are really brilliant, however, they all have 2 common traits- perseverance and courage.

Often, I feel that many people, me included, are unable to do what they really like because they lack courage and are too self-consciousness. Some are wary about how and what others may think of them. Some get discouraged by people's words. Seeing these obstacles and not being willing to break out of their comfort zone to face the disagreements, they don't pursue what they desire.

I've one very good example here. My own brother, bro1. He's currently waiting for school to start in 2 weeks' time and all along, has thoughts of working to earn some pocket money, after my advice haha. Hence, in Feb, he wanted to apply for a job at Cafe Cartel BUT on the account that I accompanied him to the interview as he was very shy (he claimed!! wah piang, so cowardy!!) However, due to my busy school schedule and everything, I couldn't accompany him at all, though I tried to squeeze some time out. Soon, after 2 weeks of failing to get hold of me, he gave up and didn't even want to try for the job alone despite much persuasion. And so, he spent the past 2 months bumming around at home, with his friends.. which I felt, could have been better spent on something else. He gained absolutely nothing for these 3 months!! And I'm pretty certain about this..

Well, all I can hope for is bro1 to be more driven in life and hopefully, he will be able to set some personal goals and will have the courage and perseverance to pursue them once he starts studying.

Go, go, go!! =)

The Tunnel

The end is as near as the light is as far from sight.

Humph. Terrible. I realised that my frequency of blogging is proportional to my level of anxiety. Shucks. Tis' bad 'cause I could have better spend my time on other things.

Weird right, humans.. Or rather me. Somehow, I seem to know where the problem lies BUT I ain't doing anything to rectify the problem, instead I'm here whining and complaining about how things should have been better.

ERRRR.. I'm so disgusted with myself!



Haha anyway, I was all prepared to go for lecture this morning, only to receive a call from Yanmin who told me that the lecturer (I shall keep his identity confidential haha) hasn't uploaded the lecture notes and apparently he announced on ivle that he'll be referring to the textbook instead. Like WTH right, not everyone has the textbook la. Hence, we've decided NOT to go for lecture. Sheesh. The one and only lecture we've missed ever since. Hurhur, just to boast a bit. :P Well fine, I better spend these 2 hours well.

d(r)ead-ed

Oh crap! Oh well. Oh no. Oh shit. Oh gosh.

Oh...

Whatever!

If this goes on..

I may drop out of school BUT I don't have the ingenuity/good luck/foresight/business acumen/perseverance of Bill Gates or Michael Dell or whoever-schooldropout-turned-billionaires!! Freak!

Hmm..

I guess I've no choice then but to study.

ARGGHH..




Yah anyway, weirdly, I'm depressed over certain issue I came across in the news and I can't seem to shake off that feeling. And it's freaking distracting that whenever I try to read my notes, I think about that entire issue again! OMG. Why am I caring so much?

Warum?????

Ok. Just 5 more minutes for me to wrap up my thoughts and I'm gonna hit my notes again.

The end is in sight

Yup stay focused!!

FOCUS
FOCUs
FOCus
FOcus
Focus
focus!!


Studying for the sake of gaining new knowledge, empowering oneself and not for the sake of obtaining good grades has presented me with a whole new learning experience.

Well well, I'll try my very best and see how it goes. =)

The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.