overloaded

... with events happening around the world! it's pretty tough to retain some optimism when the world's currently fraught with catastrophic events that will bring about rather serious ramifications. Besides many facing financial loses, lives are at stake right now in some parts of Asia.

sigh. i can only hope for the better.

back at home here.. i'm in a semi-holiday, semi-depressed, semi-lost mood. Though i officially stepped into adulthood yesterday, i don't feel that it's much of a big thing. well, i definitely have more responsibilities now and some decisions that i may make in the future are gonna carry weight in the eyes of law. also, i believe.. time's gonna fly by faster than before....... i've thus embarked on an accelerated journey to.. ermm.. seniority.

all right all right, with the not so positive global outlook at the moment, i shan't make things worse by harping on stuff beyond my control and i shall.. in fact resume mugging for my last paper!

LAST CHANCE! and 4 days'll pass.. very soon!! :S





anyway, just a sidetrack from depressing issues, my 21st birthday was somewhat special.. no birthday parties, no elaborated meetups, had an exam in fact.. haha.. but i'm very touched by the efforts of JCUBE- the conspiracy.. collecting birthday well-wishes from my friends, secondary to uni, granting almost ALL my wishes and of course, spending a special evening with me. :) and not forgetting, having dinner with my family. anyway, i'm treasuring family dinners even more so now as i will be missing out on this for a year!

before i end, wanna say:
THANK U ALL for making my day! :)

out of sight, out of mind

i'm going to chuck my textbooks into the cupboard and i'm so not going to take them out until the time comes when i NEED to pack my stuff.

perhaps i'm not trying harder. 2 scenarios have proved this case:
1) For the 1st paper, i could have written equations, but i didn't.
2) For the 2nd one (which just ended), the exact same diagram was right smack in front of me but i chose to ignore it.

=(

why?? I hope God will be kinder to me tomorrow since i'll be officially stepping into adulthood.

wow

i'm pretty impressed with myself. i managed to abstain from blogging.. for 2 weeks! that's an achievement..

anyway, i'm feeling really sleepy now but.. i've tons of notes to read.. so it's either sleep or risk getting bad grades :S


why can't we be ourselves like we were, yesterday?

coffee again?

sigh.. i resolve to kick my caffeine addiction after exams!!!! no more slave to caffeine.. boohoo

ssshhhhh i've a secret..

sheesh man.. how should i put it? i'm gonna be one of the lowliest paid interns and i've to top up my own allowance.. up to S$450 a month! =( kind of shitty as i'm so not gonna burden my parents.. and so i'm not gonna tell them...

mans! maybe i should set up a "feed janicia" fund.. arrrggghh

every cloud has a silver lining

prior to this fateful day, i was full of angst and anxiety, majorly caused by the overwhelming project deadlines and impending tests! and to top it off, i lost an important cd which i spent.. many days looking for it..

then help came! omg.. thanks mich lots and lots for saving my day! or.. i'll be stuck in the dungeon forever! =)

so much for all the angst! humph!

whatever it is that may happen in the future, i must and always must look on the bright side of life!

bleh

Fuck! also good.. i hope this serves as a wake-up call!!

BOOO!

endorphins

I need endorphins!!