dreams

Dreams come true, they do.

Humans are really self-conflicting, at least I am and I pretty much dislike that fact about myself. I must hold on to that conviction which I had when I took the first step and ignore all other external factors. Yes. I'll be strong.

Here I come, chilly philly! =)

communications

communications is a very powerful tool. the success of a project/event/activity relies heavily on how well information's being passed on and communicated, besides good planning etc etc..

Joke of the Day

In a bid to prove that I know my territory very well, I ended up in embarrassment instead.

The train was approaching bishan mrt station, and there was a mother and daughter pair standing in the middle of the carrige. The mum asked the daughter to guess which side of the train would open at bishan and the daughter didn't know and merely shook her head. Well, me, wanting to show that I live in bishan, got up and went straight to the right side of the train as the train was on the left track. And then, as the train slowed down, I heard "bishan, please alight at the left side as the station is undergoing renovations."

*blushes*

Stop!

I wish I had the power to stop time so that I can take a breather. The past few days've been busy, busy and busy- having to juggle studies (tests, assignments, lab, tutorials), non-studies related stuff and tuition. I'm glad that the weekend's approaching, at least for sure there won't be any more weekly tests. Mid-sem break = one extra week to complete my lab report BUT next week's still going to be as hellish as ever, in fact, more hellish, with monday and tuesday taken up by a first aiders' course, wednesday by GAW boot camp, thursday and friday probably by project meetings and weekends gone to studying for 2 mid-term tests. *just wanna rant, I've only myself to blame for the busy schedule :S*

The coming week's gonna be pretty challenging but I kinda like it as they're pushing me to manage my time better, be more focused when doing my stuffs and I hope I won't buckle under the tremendous stress. Heehee. BUT still, I think I need some time for a breather, so that I'll be able to act rationally and not let fatigue take over my thoughts. Though I do sleep, minimally, I refuse to THINK before I sleep. I know some people do but thinking (at least for me) will cause me insonmia.

On a personal note, I'm pretty much unbothered by management stuffs anymore, after having thought through a bit over some issues. At the end of the day, it all boils down to individuals to see the underlying meaing of doing something and how much one feels for it. Since everyone's different, not everyone would feel for something the same way you do and since this can't be forced upon, so be it, no point harping on the matter, causing yourself to be depressed. =)

Well, I believe, as long as I've done my best, out of the present circumstances amongst other persisting matters, I'ld be contented, no regrets.

Yes and I choose to be happy!

Gone with the wind

As promised.

As usual, tuesdays are tutorials day! Yes, tutorials straight in a row from 9am to 3 plus.. without a break in between. Well, they didn't seem THAT draggy, probably 'cause of the venues, the company and the workload.. seems pretty manageable. After tutorials, I went down to YIH to meet lao lao aka li xian to get our yep letter endorsed! yes, finally there's some progress at the admin side.. spent about an hour settling this. After which, I waited for jenny pok outside lt7.. for our weekly routine- going for ballet lessons together!

It's really Jcube's treasured weekly meet ups. Going for ballet lessons together and then for dinner before heading home. Well, I was glad I went for lesson today.. it's the last lesson by the way and we did a lot more than before and I realised that ballet's really about discipline. It tempted me to sign up for the intermediate class, though I highly doubt I'll ever be professional.

There're so many other wonders in this world that one can explore.. once again, life leaves me with choices, restrained choices though..

I need some time and some blessing.

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I broke my guitar. My almost 6 years old guitar. =(

And it's beyond repair 'cause there's a crack in the fingerboard and the sound's no longer the same. =(

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First Time, First Day, Everyday!

This is so weird. I realised I've not really blogged about my daily happenings before and have decided to start doing so.*

I didn't go to school today (again) in the end as I had to dragged myself to wake up and decided that I wasn't feeling well. Hehe. Hence, I ended up watching webcast and had brunch with my family early afternoon. Read: Family = Everybody. Yes, my youngest brother decided not to go to school today too. S*** him! But it's quite rare that we have lunch together.. so no qualms. My mum even joked about us being too comfy for our own good- we're not going school and dad's taking his time to start work. Hurhur. =) Well, I really appreciate the fact that my family does spend quality time together and recently, I've been soaking in familial love. =)

Thanks dad for taking us specially to Toa Payoh yesterday and for brunch today so that I can buy wrapping paper and thanks mum for accompanying me to the shop to help me select the wrapping paper and forking out the money first. Thanks rong for your killiney kaya toast coupon and congrats on your good grades, keep it up pleaseeeee and not get carried away and thanks wei for telling mum my birthday wishes! =)

Ok, it's really weird recounting the events, it's just not my style, but I shall persist!

*Yes, I've decided to keep a record of what's happening in my life as I want to be able to reminisce about the past, smile or cry and feel that I've lived life and that I've lived.. happily! Yes, death's been a rather morbid topic.. but I still wanna say.. whatever it is.. I don't want to die with regrets!

帮

“是的！我要帮你， 也要帮我自己。”

说了这句话后， 她便转身走了。

what's forever?

tell me.. what's "true"?

Law of Attraction

It played on me today. And it played me out. One thing led to another and I'm feeling shitty all over. All 'cause of a stupid lab report!!

I've wasted 2 days on it and really really hoped to complete it by today afternoon but the most unfortunate thing happened. The files I saved.. were corrupted! As such, I couldn't complete my lab report and spent the rest of the afternoon trying to recover my works. So much for rushing through it the previous night.. hoping to study for my test today! CRAPS... bleh

But luckily, there were people in the clubroom to help me out and make me less uptight. Thank you people! =) but all's not lost as I finally saw Mich whom I've not seen for a very long time ahaha.. =)

All right and I missed the 2nd last ballet lesson and missed out meeting Jcube. :(

Oh craps.

What about now?

I would like to dedicate the following song to YOU:

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading
From all the things that we are
And are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn

Change the colors of the sky
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive 
The ways I loved you 
For all the things that never died
To make it through the night
Love will find you

What About Now
What about today
What if you're making me
All that I was meant to be
What if our love never went away 
What if it's lost behind
Words we could never find
Baby before its too late 
What About Now 

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day
This broken heart can still survive 
With the touch of your grace 
As shadows fade into the light
I am by your side where love will find you

What About Now
What about today
What if you're making me
All that I was meant to be
What if our love never went away
What if it's lost behind
Words we could never find
Baby before its too late
What About Now

Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far, just hold on
There is nothing to fear
For I am right beside you
For all my life I am yours 

... YES YOU... for being with me all these years. 

Dream... dream, dream, dream...

A man is not old until regrets take the place of dreams.

By this statement, I think I'm not young anymore.. neither am I old. =) I'm preserved.. in a time warp. =)

Hence, I'll keep dreaming.. till the very last day of my life.